‘Windows XP Performer’ 15 minute film (2020).
Recorded and performed by Ellen in a real location. Framing the hill and sky background as her home that she must wake and perform on a continuous loop, the performer exists in an altered reality in-between humanity, technology and nature, where time is looped.
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It had begun. It was a race between creativity and the setting sun, who shall win? Who is controlling who? No stopping only fast adrenaline, no pauses, only wild fear and excitement.
I began to transition, first crouching, crawling, looking up and around, where was I?, It was like I had just awoken on this foreign land, however I knew It was mine, this vast expanse of green for me to own. The sun was waiting. It was time. My limbs began to move, whipping up, down and around, guiding me down the path, my body swayed graciously, the movements were not my own, but they came somewhere from deep within and erupted out.
I ran. Ran into the field centre set the camera up and flew across the field again positioning myself in the middle. I must perform. It took over, this need, this overwhelming desire, to please, to love to express, to let go, to become and to succumb. Time became fictional. A puppet on strings I was, the earth was playing with me pushing me and pulling me around, or was it? Was it the screen that was manipulating me? Or was it just me? I did not know, and I did not care. The other reality I started in was long gone and I was lost in the new rectangle earth and my new body. It had been hours, yet my body felt unused, numb to any pain. Only pure ecstasy.
The light began to lower… no! …OFF …it was over … time became material, the life force I was contained in seeped away and left me alone and vulnerable in my own skin. My body grew feeling and the need to flee was overpowering and I ran, this time back to reality.